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So, to summarize the past month for those who don't know:
I was put up for judicial review by my supervisor because some nasty bitches went to my boss and told her I skipped rounds, left while on duty, and supplied alcohol to minors. That was Friday May 15th. Went to Celtic Woman with my mom last night (Sonya, remember me watching their concerts on TV sophomore year? so much better!).
The next morning at 8 am, my gramma called and said my grampa had passed away.
Rather than giving HFS the chance to fire me, I decided to resign and did so on the Monday. Was moved out by Wednesday morning. My mom and I left the next Saturday for Montana, we drove thru the night. The funeral was on the 26th, I stayed thru the rest of the week. Went back for my last week of classes, finished off my last choir recital and really settled into being home. Graduated on Friday the 12th.
Interviewed at ACS in Tumwater on the 16th. I got the job to nobody's surprise and I start on the 23rd. Full time work, I need the money since the life insurance money is gone.
My mom and I are getting along really, really well. She's been supportive of my hardships, she's celebrating my job, and we're settling into a routine together.
We started on a diet today so everyone note, a) I have no money to go out and b)I'm on Alli and shouldn't be eating fat, plus have meals planned out for the next week and a half for sure.
So, life has been rough but I'm trying to get things in order and in shape.
Oh, and I had a guy message me on okcupid, potential? Je ne sais pas. |
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Weekend before Thanksgiving- hot water heater exploded, Soot Boy got hit by a car, and my car died. Got them all fixed but have no money now. I just finished my 411 class, which means the papers for it and 304 are DONE! FINALLY! Now al I have left is several choir performances, finishing my dissertation, and two finals. But I feel like the worst is over, thank God! Done with floor and building programs, all that's left is checkouts, sweeps, and our RA party. The end is near! I'm tired of straight boy drama. Fucking Theo. And Alex. Ugh. But, all in all, this is the best I've felt in weeks and hopefully it only gets better from here! PS I miss and love you Rachel! |
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BYARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! That sums up a lot of things right now. In other more positive news: Nash and I are hanging out again, a lot in fact. He's making dinner for me and some friends on Saturday, excitement! My midterms are finally over, actually managed to pull a 3.7 on my 304 midterm after missing several classes and not doing all the readings. YAY! I'm all done with resident engagement meetings and we'll be done with resident surveys next week, only one more program to go so RA-wise, the quarter is wrapping up. Registered last Friday (yay graduating senior priority!) and got into French 305 (lit 1600-1798), French 445 (women writers), and German 101, plus both my choirs. I'm ready for it to be December 15 now so I can go to Montana. Time to go bang out 2 papers now. Wooo! |
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Wow, I'm really bad about posting... Training finished fine, was a busy time as usual. The last day as we were taking staff pictures, I fell and sprained my ankle. Still week but I'm pretty much out of the brace. Felt so lovely as I was wearing a surgical shoe the first week. Like my classes so far. French 304 is Medieval/ Renaissance lit, 411 is King Arthur stuff, and 499 is 19th cent lit with a focus on treatment, portrayal, and influence of women. I'm reading an average of 3 books a week (in addition to course pack materials) in French, as well as working with residents and various meetings. Super busy but I think this will be a good quarter. Love my staff, even if they do keep scaring me. Had to take Alex to the ER a couple weeks ago, there for 6 hours and he was diagnosed with scarlet fever. Was a frightening night. Now Shiv is being an idiot about eating and his body is giving out. Bah! Had an issue with another friend thinking death is better than life last night but I think he's ok for now. Nash is still not talking to me. It makes me sad to think I've lost him as a friend, though I don't know that for sure just yet. Spending lots of time with Theo but he's useless for insight into the head of Nash. My mom paid for my MT tickets for winter break, wasn't sure if I would be able to afford them otherwise and I really need to go. The doctors have recommended hospice for my grampa so who knows how long I'll have him. This could be a really rough year... Other than that, my birthday is in 18 days and I graduate in June...
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So, last night some cousins from Montana surprised us and stopped in for a visit. They're from the Rhodes side, Bruce is my dad's first cousin and looks so much like my grampa right now, that it's a little scary. He married Marion while stationed in Germany (she's German) and they had 2 kids, Colin and Kyra. Colin graduated last year (he wasn't with them last night) and Kyra's now a senior in high school. She's looking at potentially coming to UW for school. My mom and Marion adore each other and they're so much alike. They're some of few non-immediate family that I've remembered since I was itty bitty and they still honor my mom as a total part of the family. It was really nice to go out to dinner last night and be a family. At one point we got talking about my dad and it just made me happy, fun memories and empathizing with others who miss him just as much as I do. Made me feel connected to him. And it causes me glee to have family who were so connected to him (Bruce and he were basically best friends growing up) tell me that he would be so proud of who I've grown up to be and that they see a lot of him in me. AND they're making plans to come over for my graduation this year, more like they informed me they would be attending. In other news, I've started looking at grad schools. GASPSHOCKAMAZEMENT. It's still a few years off but I'm feeling like I might know what I want to do? I'm liking the idea more and more of becoming a French teacher. And Eastern Washington University has a specific French Ed program (the only one in this corner of the states) that sounds really appealing. Basically I'd be getting the Master's certification in education with the added requirements of 2 summers in their institure in Nice and one more summer at EWU with the last French reqs. Tuition is cheaper than at UW for undergrad and who knows, a change of scenery could be good for me. And Cheney is not so very far away that I couldn't come home periodically, Rachel. I don't know anything for sure, except that after June I will be taking a year off. So, I'm feeling kinda more on track for the time being... Excitement, CAMPING TOMORROW!!!!!!!!! Rachel, I love you. I feel like I've been distant/ bitchy lately and I don't mean to be. You're still one of the best things in my life and I'm looking forward to all our upcoming adventures! |
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It's so nice to be home. Marrowstone was a ton of fun, I miss a bunch of the people I spent time with- my counselors, Eli, Seth, Graham, Aaron and all the others. I hope they want to bring me back next year, though I can't be sure because some of the kids thought I was too mean or on a power trip. Guess it's the nature of being in a diciplinarian position.
Got home about 1 on Monday and am still trying to catch up on sleep. Hung out with Nicole Monday night (SQUEE) then ended up spending some time with Jared. Jess and I went out and got pedicures yesterday (now have a new nail place) and did some shopping. Spending quite a bit of time watching the Olympics and just relaxing for my last 3 weeks at home. |
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So, Jess and I have been talking about getting inner tubes and floating the river for awhile. Decided to finally do it yesterday. We got in at 5:30, which is WAY too late. Floated for awhile and had fun, kept careening into bushes, trees, logs, rocks etc. Then the sun went down and we had no clue where we were. Saw a set of houses before it was all the way down but decided to continue on. Kept going, not sure of what we were stepping on or when the water depth wwould suddenly increase. Both of us were scared, I managed to keep myself some degree of calm for the sake of not being a burden on Jess. FINALLY we saw a house with lights on and decided to climb out and use their phone. Unfortunately, we were about 6 feet below their property with no easy way out... in rapids. Tried to get me up one part initially- almost made it once then slid down, tried again, fell, and had a panic attack. Not good. Kept thinking how we were going to die and no one would know until morning. We went a little further down and found a chunk of root sticking out. I did manage to hoist myself out, with lots of effort. When I landed on the ground, the grass was amazing. Almost kissed it. Jess passed me the tubes then got out too. Went up to the house and used the gal's phone to call my mom. She came and got us, me in shock and shaking profusely. Got back to the house and both of us showered then went to Shari's for food, still trying to fully warm-up. Drank a lot of coffee and ate some warm food and was feeling ok when we left. I got to the car, opened the door and turned around. Gagged into the bushes, puked a little in front of the door, then made it to the toilet for the rest. Came home after and both of us tried to sleep, finally warm though. Both of us are VERY sore, scraped up, bruised, and weary but at least we're alive! We could have seriously died last night, very glad we didn't. I'm trying to get more sleep now so wish me luck. Nicole, I miss you. When do you come home? I'm not back from Marrowstone til Aug. 11th.
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Yesterday I had to go up to Seattle to do some planning for Marrowstone. Jess decided to go with and drive, so that worked for me. We stopped up at UW about 1 to see Nash and do some birthday stuff. I had picked him up a little molten chocolate and attempted to light a candle but failed. He opened the presents I got him- a tamagochi-type soccer player game, a Beattles music book, a Coldplay piano book, and a flask from his favorite soccer team. HE LOVED THEM, I win! Drove him to work at the aquarium then got me up to Northgate to do my work. Managed to completely get activities scheduled as well as counselor duty and assignments. Had to edit previous year training materials then compile packets for my 12 counselors (some of whom are older than me lol). Had Jess come up and help with that part. Managed to get 6 paper jams making just a few packets... this bodes well for the daily copying I'll have to do once I'm up in Bellingham. Got back home about 8:15 to waffles with my mom and Ricky. Invited Chelsey over and we hung out for a couple hours. It was a nice day, getting to see my two favorite people from staff. |
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So, my 4th was pretty fun and relaxed. Got up about 9:15 and Ricky made me an omelette. Then he, my mom, and I went to the Tumwater parade. Met up with Jess there and afterwards we went out to El Sarape for lunch. Got gas afterwards then headed to the mall. The night before I had found a snazzy Bluetooth in the Walmart parking lot so I had Verizon sync it up with my phone. Dropped Jess off at work then went home. Lindsey called me then came over (haven't seen or heard from her in FOREVER). She came with me to pick up Jess from work, ended up eating at Red Robin. We were going to go watch fireworks but opted for going to see Wall-E, which was even better the 2nd time. Today I'm meeting up with Rachel for lunch and shopping then Jared's coming over tonight for alcohol times... I'm excited. Oh, and I got the symphony summer camp job officially, signed my contracts. I leave July 25, I'm excited! |
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I hated this last quarter and my grades show it... at least a 0.9 is passing >.< |
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I auditioned this morning and made it into recital choir!
Yay for me having balls and getting to do 2 choirs again! |
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I got to talk to my Nicole tonight. This causes me great glee. I love you chicka and miss you a ton. Live it up, carpe diem! PS My mom sends her love to you as well. And when I got off the phone with you, I cried a bit. But that's because we're soulmates and I felt completed. <3 |
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Hangovers are unpleasant. But so worth it from what I remember of the party. Rachel, care to write and entry and fill in on details? |
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I just got my EnV. It's green. AND AMAZING! |
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THANK THE LORD OR WHATEVER THE HELL NEEDS TO BE THANKED--- I'M DONE WITH THIS FUCKING WINTER QUARTER!!!!!!!!!! Oh happy day! Next quarter won't be easy but some people will be dropped out and no longer here to make life miserable. Also, I'm now a senior- WHA-TCHA!! Plus I might have some French students moving to my floor... Nash and I will be finishing my bottle of chardonnay tomorrow night in celebration and then Saturday I go to Montana. Sleepytime here I come! |
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Well. Read this.
Today at 3:06pm Ok, so the real reason why I don't want to be friends with you is that I can't deal with your lifestyle. I'll be very honest here. I feel like you're so unhealthy, and you don't take enough pride in yourself. You are in such bad shape that your life is at risk. I know you have problems with your health, and you need to take care of yourself first before you let anyone else in. I just had to be realistic about it, and I am very busy. I am essentially going to disappear this spring and summer, and its a lot of responsibility. I need to focus on my future and my goals right now. I am really stressed. But, the reality of the situation is that I want to have friends that share my interests and goals. Being healthy and active is very important to me, and that is definitely something that you are not interested in. So, I know that I hurt your feelings by not talking to you about it, but I feel like I should have the freedom to leave if I want to.
So yeah, I guess not only am I not cool enough for her, I'm too fat as well. |
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The screen on my laptop died. I have to wait "3-4" business days to get a new one then wait for somebody to come install it. Fanfuckingtastic. Oh, and the Hindu guy I talked to for 2 hours somehow decided my name is Vanesha. Joy. |
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Here it is, my overwhelming schedule for what I'll be going through next quarter. Generalized, of course, due to various programs and other requirements of my job. MONDAY 10:30-12:20 French 303- Advanced Grammar and Writing Skills 12:30-2:20 French 306- Fr Lit 1789-present (all the BS after the Revolution, I have to buy 8 books :P) 7:00-9:00 Staff Meeting TUESDAY 2:30-3:30 Choose, Connect, Change RA committee 4:30-6:20 Women 427- Women and Violence. That's right folks, nothing until 2:30. WEDNESDAY 10:30-12:20 French 303 12:30-2:20 French 306 4:30/9:00 Duty 9:00 Rounds 11:00 Rounds THURSDAY 4:30-6:20 Women 427 (yes, this is the start of my day) 7:00-8:50 Musen 100- Women's Glee FRIDAY 10:30-12:20 French 303 Really, it's not so bad of a schedule. The night classes suck royally but hey, at least the earliest I start is 10:30. Not looking forward to the 4 hour blocks of French but hey, I managed it ok first quarter. Just thought I'd give an update. PS I hate drama and people who create it. |
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So, I just sent this to Sam over Facebook. I'm kinda tired of her not acknowledging my existence and kind of feel like this friendship could be ending, so I figure I better get what's mine before it's too late... I could have been a lot pissier but I think the underlying anger is still readily present: Hey, I know you're super busy with all of your friends and Rhapsody and stuff but I do need my spare keys back. Also, since you sold back my Animal Behavior book which I was going to sell to someone else, I figure you can count it as buying it from me. The bookstore sells used ones for $71.25 but I'll say $65 will suffice. Don't worry about going out of your way to bring it to Terry, just pass it to Jess. She'll be sure I get it. |
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I was on secondary duty for Valentine's day, was a quiet night. Went to go down and print some stuff off for my French presentation and to turn in the phone at 7:30 and the elevator came to a screaming halt around floor 2. Problem, yes. I was stuck. I used the phone to beep Jacob and he got the elevator guy to come. Note: he's been complaining that he doesn't have any interesting duty stories. Me getting stuck in the elevator is one for the books! I got let out about 8:15, slightly traumatized but no biggie. Got my presentation together and went to class. I hate oral presentations.
In my sex class, we had the tranny panel. Amazing class! After that, I loaded my car and slowly made my way downtown to go to the fitting for the store I'm modeling for, they decided I'm wearing evening wear:D Finally got back on I-5 about 4:30 but didn't make it to Rachel's until 7. I hate traffic!
She drove us to the mall, I got a new nose ring and we went and saw Tim. Then we went for an amazing dinner at Pints and Quarts. I had more than a little to drink, so Rachel drove me home. Mara's on her way to come get me so I can get my car then we're hanging out. Hooray for my first break from work and school...ish. Tomorrow is all homework. I'm still waiting to hear from State Farm about the internship, but hopefully I get it. Full-time, paid for 10 weeks this summer. Hooray for being productive! |
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